Self awareness

I'm so tired of people judging me.

I am an excellent mother. If they only knew.

I know everyone thinks they had a "bad childhood," but damnit, I did. It freaking sucked. There was so much going on that when it was all said and done I left my "parent's" house with no life skills.

I've learned way more from my husband and his family than I ever learned from my parents. Well, let me take that back. Let's see. In the house were I grew up. I learned how to be greedy, self-centered, materialistic, judgmental, spoiled, rude, dependent, abrasive, controlling, two-faced, and the list could go on.

My 20's were spent in the real world figuring out that behavior like that just doesn't fly. I became a wife at 25-yay. I became a mother at 27 and 29 again-yay.

Now at 30, I'm working hard, and I'm going to clean up the rest of the loose ends. I am and will be a good example to my kids. Thank God I'm aware of this now while they're little rather than figure it out when they're 12 and 14 or something. When my babies are grown and ready to leave I will be sure that they had the best of me. I will be sure that they have the life skills needed to function properly, and that they will not be what I was when I left home at 18 to take on the world.

It's more than just the weight.